Time is precious...

Time... I know people get so sick of hearing me say that " time is precious " well it is... My sister and my sweet Mini Me, Lola flew in to visit some friends in Destin and I had the privilege of picking them up from the airport and taking them to the condo.  Daddy 0 rode along so we could have a quick visit.  I will take what I can get... It was not long.  Short car ride, a few minutes hugging and taking some pictures, but it was fun and it made my soul giggle..  that is what matters.  I love them to pieces and would do anything to keep them happy and safe.  My sister and I share an amazing connection.  We always have.  Yes I picked on her and she will say I was mean to her... Not me? !!!  But I always made sure she was safe.  My mom was a single mom with two girls.  We were 5.5 yrs apart and I had to help take care of her.  My mom worked hard to make sure we had what we needed and never wanted for anything.  I never knew until I was old enough to understand that there were some really rough days my mom went through... She did a great job at being MOM, because I never had any idea.  I love my sister, she has been my rock through some really dark times.  I am grateful for the little time we get and look forward to the time when we plan to hang out for longer.  Like I said, I will take what I can get... an hr... worked for me !!! 

We had lots of gifts of time this week.  Brett, Zack and Brett's girlfriend Taylor came to visit...  We laughed and cut up and made good food and had an amazing visit... It was pretty cool to have all my boys under one roof.  This rarely happens.  I slept so good knowing that all their little heartbeats were here with me.  I love all my boys and the oldest ones are growing up and making their own way and that " time " with them is now more precious than anything when I can get it.  Happy Mama this week. :)

Which brings me to this... If you speak the truth and not only are truthful with others but yourself you will go a lot further than if you continue to try and cover up what is real.  I think that we all tell " tall tales " at some point, or maybe you are more comfortable calling them exaggerations.  The bottom line, no matter what you call it, if you will just be honest, I promise it makes  life so much simpler.  My goal is to just live simply.  However that can be accomplished.  

I say it over and over again.  Just be kind.  I know there are exceptions to the rule... I am guilty of being unkind at times too.  I try very hard to express myself in a manner that is not harmful to any one's soul.  Once you damage a soul, it is almost impossible to fix.  

I know Jeff is around the boys all time.  He lives in their hearts and guides them just like he guides me.  I thought this picture of him with Brett and Justin was a sweet reminder that even though he is not here physically he lives on in our memories.  We cherish those... All that TIME... the TIME that was precious and now we remember him always !!! 

Life continues to go forward, we continue to LIVE to make memories.  We are looking forward to all the new chapters in this journey of " new normal "  I feel completely blessed to have not only found an amazing love and have a true love story to tell and remember, but to have found that again in this " new normal " I am happy again.  I am loving the life we are making together and Josh not only loves me and my boys but always helps me continue to keep Jeff's memory alive and respects that part of our world that is " handle with care "... I never thought I would be loved and have that love to give again.  Most people are lucky to have that once, I am ecstatic to have found it again...  Never really losing it the first time, it just became different.  We continue to make memories and are excited to see what will be revealed...  Mwah to you all !!!

Love the one you are with, be kind, always say i love you !!! 

Love, Michelle 

The gang of H's with a few Ptak' s hanging around !!!