I was asked to write a blog on a " widows " Mother's Day... As insight into what that day feels like when the one you love that gave you your blessings is no longer here in the physical world. The rebel in me says " what the hell? why would you write about something so somber on such a day to be celebrated? " So... that's exactly what you are getting. The celebration of a most unique Mother's Day.
My world is a collision of folks. My children that lost their father... Justin, Brett, Nikolas and Noland. Josh's children that I adore... Malaya, Maddy, and Jaycob and their mom's, Josh's Mom, Jeff's Mother and my mother... We are just a mess of folks that enjoy loving our children and we all have a different story. On Mother's day I was honored to wake up to five adorable faces and an amazing husband who loves me and was thoughtful and got me framed pictures of us and the kids. I love pictures... they make me smile. Pieces of myself have changed because of what I went through.
I do not like to have anyone leave without saying good bye and I love you. I do not like my children to go to be upset. Anything, and I mean Anything can happen. It makes my stomach hurt. I believe in kissing in the morning and always before bed.
I am a very fortunate woman to have so many blessings in my world. Today I focus on the Love and not the loss. Focusing on the loss makes me sad and empty feeling. It creates turmoil and raises questions that I will never know the answers to. Today I focus on how much I have been loved my whole life. My parents, Jeff, and now Josh and his family. I have experienced more in my short life than most will ever experience in their whole life. I choose LIFE and I hope you do too...
Love you all !!
