This morning I woke up kind of early for a Saturday morning and it was so quiet. My sweet husband had to work today and the girls are not here, and Jaycob is with his mom. It almost seems surreal to wake up and not find all of the tiny heart beats that are usually getting into something on Saturday morning.
Most people might would find that silence to be a relief. I woke up and had forgotten that they wouldn't all be here. We get so caught up in wanting that relief as parents that when we get it unexpectedly it can really catch your heart off guard. Shortly after waking up, Noland emerged his sleepy cute little self: came into the living room and we actually had a nice little chat and talked about some things that have been going on lately and made some plans to go and have a little bit of fun this afternoon. Then Nick woke up and we told him about our plans and he immediately began looking for the girls and Jaycob. We're just not used to not having them here. He got excited about our plans for the day and both the boys enjoyed some hot chocolate with mom and I enjoyed my coffee. I made them breakfast which was the simplest of tasks since it was just the three of us. However, while making a couple of pieces of sausage and one pack of biscuits I realized my life is really transformed and sometimes it's chaotic and sometimes it's crazy in most of time I feel like I'm herding a small tribe tiny little not grown yet people. So long story short I miss all the tiny heart beats in the house at one time. I miss the chaos, I miss the Crazy.
Life has been so Crazy. I am so behind on blogging and researching for my book and just being in the now...
In October my dad had brainstem strokes.. Most of you know this. It has been a long five months. The scariest five months of my life. We are so fortunate that he is recovering and doing so well now. He went home on February 19th. He has come so far from where he was that it is literally night and day. Dad worked so hard and was determined to get back to our koolaid.
The kids are growing and involved in activities after school. We are settled in our new home finally. We moved into our forever home in August and we love it. It has been a long time since we felt like we were HOME.
Josh and I celebrated our one year anniversary. We are happy and in love and I am the luckiest lady in the world we celebrated by chilling on some dirt roads and just being alone. I love him to the moon !!!
Justin was married to Callon last weekend. The feelings that were tangled up in my heart I can't even put on paper right now. I just keep remembering how little he was and seeing him all grown up and married has made me quite nostalgic. I am so proud of him and I know they are happy.
Nope. My story is not over. My treatment has been delayed because of insurance and financial issues. I could not afford to pay almost 5k a month. I have jumped through a million hoops and done everything asked of me and now I am finally approved as of March 1st to have it ordered from the pharmacy. Hopeful to get it by the 4th or 5th. I am ready to get back to normal...well, not normal,but our normal. Life keeps rocking away and we keep on keeping on...I know this blog doesn't cover it all but it's a start to continue from. I hope this finds you and yours happy and healthy.
Love to you all. Always be kind.
