Sunday, May 21, 2017

It aint your mama' blog

The last couple of weeks have been,  how should i put it?, hell!!!

My dads divorce finalized...  Wow,  amazing what you are awarded through the court when you lie and choose not to work and create hardship to another soul.

To say that my dad was screwed over is an understatement.

We have been moving forward as best we can. The truly saddest thing i have witnessed is watching my dad grieve over his time while married and feeling as if he failed.

I spend a lot of time with him and he has Barlow,  but he had another dog and he got permission to have her at his apartment and instead his now ex wife put her to sleep...  My boys were devastated. They have loved Katie since she was  Pup...  She was about 8 yrs old....  So the boys have loved her most of their life...  I just do not understand how someone becomes so cruel.   I am not writing this in hopes that she sees it and gets upset. I am writing because it helps me to process thoughts...



I am glad daddy has Barlow. He is the sweetest big burly dog ever.

So...  We made the move to Lynn Haven. Its nice to be close to everything and dad but because of the financial mess Dad ex wife left him in it put us all in a bind...  I was not able to follow through on some issues i was going to resolve. It will happen,, just a little later than i had figured. I hope my Friendship stays in tact with the very special people i am referencing. I love them to the moon.


Onward and upward from here on out...

We are learning to be happy again.   Fountain was a gift to begin with. One i could never repay,  but in the end it almost killed us.

 It took our happy away. It was 1000 miles a week on 2 vehicles, it was hard to get to the kids and it almost claimed our marriage.  I am not putting out our dirty laundry,  just telling the truth. We wanted to make it forever but circumstances changed and dad has had to come and live with us...

We are finally settled down and have dad all situated and he is making this home...  Barlow loves the yard and is getting used to all of us. It is really hard not to lose myself amidst the chaos and the being needed by so many.

We are doing ok..  Getting better by the week...  Keep sending light and love. We need it...