We are glass....

We are glass... We are fragile... We are human... We are shaped by the light we let through us.... We may shine, we may shatter, we may be picking up the pieces here on after....  ( lyrics from Thompson Squared Glass )

What truth there is to this...  I have had a couple of weeks where I have been in an emotional turmoil.  May come as a shock to most of you if you are friends with me on Facebook... I try very hard to hide what I am feeling.  I try so hard to not break...  I never want to feel broken.  If you don't know, I ended up taking a very impromptu trip for 24 hrs to Georgia.  I needed to not just " see " my sister, mom, nieces, step dad, brother in law, dear friend Jennifer and so many others I did not get a chance to see... I needed to put my arms around their necks.  I needed to be HELD up for a minute.  I needed my soul to feel healed.  I love where I live, the people, there was nothing wrong... no tragedy here in FL.  I just needed to see that good ole' GA clay... drive those old GA roads... i needed the familiarity of home... I had been struggling with it for a couple of weeks and it finally broke me...I needed sweet snuggles from my mini me and squishy... I got what I needed.  I feel whole again.. Not broken...

I heard the lyrics to that song and thought.  We are all Glass.. we do reflect what light we allow to shine through us.  I have some friends that are dear to me that are in situations that are so painful and emotional tormenting that I can not fix, nor is it my job to fix.  The decisions that they are making are reflecting the light they are allowing to shine through them.  I am not abandoning anyone, but I can not fix it.  It is so painful to watch lives become tangled up because of bad decisions.  I can only be a soundboard.  This is when that magic wand I have always wished for would come in handy...

Once I landed in GA.  I had one of those really ugly cries in the bathroom at the airport... I could not wait to have these tiny arms around my neck... I love them so much... We had so much fun.  We got to spend the whole day together playing and goofing off...

I was so proud of my sister, Mel, she did a half marathon with a fractured shin...  I do not know how she managed to do it, but she was determined and never surrendered.  !!!!!

I enjoyed seeing my sweet niece Kaelyn.  She is growing up so fast.  I am so proud of her too.  I loved visiting and of course no day is complete without a crown and some hair fixing by Lola even Nanny got her hair done...  Those hugs from mama are just what you need sometime.

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Love is that condition in which the happiness 

of another person is essential to your own.
~ Robert Heinlein ~

We are beginning to plan the wedding... YaY !!!  So many people have been asking me what the plans are and when etc... We have nothing concrete.  We want to plan a huge party for the reception and enjoy the day and Celebrate with all of our friends and family.  I think we have narrowed down it will be next October 2015 and I believe we are having an engagement party for my peeps in GA this November.  Jennifer, my bestie, is planning that... Sooo more will be revealed...  We are enjoying every minute of this and we are determined to not be stressed or be in debt up to our eyeballs... ha ha ha ha 

There are lots of fun things coming up with the Holidays around the corner and I am happy... Life is crazy, and we are living it... 

Love the one you are with, always say I love you and never ever take time for granted...

Much love to you all from the Gang of H's and the Ptaks...

Mwah !!! Xoxo

Michelle